OUTLET OF FRUSTRATION HAPPINESS AND EVERYTHING THAT'S LIFE....

i was watching filipino news a few minutes ago and it pains me to see people not being with their families because they have to work hard to make a living. i know how it feels like, it's too heavy, it's too painful, even with your friends around.

but nothing is worst than the feeling of your family and feeling like they're so close yet so far... *sigh*

at sana hindi mo ito binabasa ngayong christmas eve dahil sabi ni bryanboy last year ang mga taong walang friends at bored lang ang nagbabasa ng mga kng anik anik sa internet pag pasko..


MALIGAYANG PASKO AT MANIGONG BAGING TAON SA INYO AT IYONG PAMILYA!!!!!

yesterday was the last day of the term. i didn't study for the last scheduled tests so i am expecting that i probably didn't do well. whatever i'm just happy that the term's over and that i can let loose of myself and just relax. lavet!

after school, i and a bunch of my classmates went to scarbrough town center after the tests for some bonding session at least for the last time before going on the christmas break which isgoing to be a month. (lol that was a pretty long sentence without any punctuation - my english professor would flip!) it was so fun to walk around the mall and getting to know them a bit more.

afterwards me and 3 of the coolest people in the world went downtown to go ice skating. ice skating has never been my cup of tea. i always get swollen legs and heels after skating. but it was totally fun and we get to meet new faces.
this skating trip was one of the most memorable night ever.  i kind of know how to balance myself already on ice. then i tried and tried and tried so hard so that i won't fall but i horribly failed at the attempt of not falling flat on my butt. it happened a few times. but the worst part was that i was chasing after my friend i gained some momentum then sped up and tried to stop myself (i tried to do what my friends taught me on how to stop) but instead i rotated in different directions and fell on my knees. as i was getting up my right foot slipped and voila, my pants ripped, because i am the loudest person on earth, i was like panicking that my pants ripped and screamed at my friend "my pants my pants my pants it ripped!" and just realised that everyone's already looking. lol... why can't i be so discreet about this kind of unfortunate circumstances. blah... now i learned my lesson...  one of the most embarassing moment. oh and the pants that i ripped was my all time favourite pair... but still i had a blast...

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now i've been saying that i was gonna go apply for a job already. i've been saying that for like months and months since the school started and i haven't even started yet. but next week i'm seriously going to apply for a job already. i don't wanna be affected by the technical economic recession that's predicted to happen in canadain the first quarter of next year. so i need job job job! and i have to pay fot my bills damn i already have my credit card maxed out, so somethingt that'd pay for my bills would be very much appreciated by my parents who are paying everything for me.

last week i was bragging about the britney concert having sold out the box office ticket and that i wasn't able to buy 2, 1 for me and 1 my friend. nothing's showing up anymore. there are no more side by side seats that are available so i decided to just ditch her and buy myself a premium ticket. yeah i'm a loser i am going alone in a concert; i am probably not the only who's doing so (hopefully).

i don't friggin care if my friends don't want to come with me... i'll go alone...


i probably won't be the only one who would anyways....


so yeah... i was able to get a premium ticket for myself... after the grueling effort of trying to find 2 tickets for me and my friend, but due to some luck issues (i kept on refreshing damn it!) i ran out of tickets that my friend could afford) but since nothing's left... i just purchased the premium one for myself and ditched her!

now i can have a good night sleep....

i hate ticketmater.com!!!!!! damn! i was online at 2pm todayb to buy 3 tix for britney's concert at air canada centre in march. so i was online and was on time and the site kept on giving me awful seats!!!!! damn that! so i kept on refreshing and refreshing until there are no more tix available for 3... so then i tried 2 instead.... then bummer... no more tix are available for the box office (regular tickets). the ones that are platinum are well priced however the convenienve fee is too tough in the pocket... imaging another $42.50 for that other then the 189.00 for teh ticket... then add on top of that the shipping fee if you're lazy to go to the retail outlets! damn.. wish i could still get 2-3 tix... i just effin need to see this concert... i've been afan since i was a kid... so this is my chance to see this britney bitch girl... i'm pisssed!

i just realized that i don't like taking pictures anymore. maybe because my camera sucks and that i want a new one. or maybe because as you get older, you see things in a different perspective; you've outgrown things that you were fond of when you were with happy people.

i have been enjoying myself since i went to college here. people are so awesome and funny and very accepting. there are still plastics especially those that stereotypes. dumb ass! but yeah college is the best. and i miss my friends in the philippines. it gets really boring here especially on weekends. i have nowhere to go, and i hate malls. parks aren't that pleasant this time of the year. i want friends to hang out with without spending a single penny. but that's utterly impossible since going to one's place cost $2.75 not cheap... so i'd rather stay home and eat some cakes or pringles and ruffles.

anyhoot... i'll be sending off this monday my greetings to everyone for xmas. =D i'll be but=ying my britney spears concert tix today... it's a gift for myself for acing my courses!

i'm on my last week of my first term, and i have tons of readings to do for the exams next week. i'm kind of tired already from reading textbooks. the exams are comprehensive, so i am kind of worried. i'm kind of acing every course that i have so i am not that scared of failing, but still i should get As to boost up my fucked up GPA in my univ transcript from UST; i wanna go to university after college so i need As. i hope i get an A but i'll cross out english on that. i'll probably get a B on that... i hate essays. you can see how i write... it's awful... so yeah... i am praying so hard for As.

so about the presentation that i had... lol i got 7.6/10! not bad but i only got 71% on my take home essay, i thought i had a thesis statement on that shit but according to the professor, i don't. hmmp. as per requirement raw dapat talaga meron. and yeah a feed back that i got from the teacher was that i said a lot of "LIKE" like  what the hell, i wsn't even aware of it. damn, now i don't wanna hang out with kis because they'e the ones who influenced me with like and whatever! urgh...

Read this news article about a man who was just about to propose to his Filipina girlfriend when a wave swept her off the shore... she didn't even get to hear his proposal and never get the chance to see the ring... This is just so sad!!!!

http://www.theaustralian.news.com.au/story/0,25197,24755176-12335,00.htm

i can't believe it! the semester's ending in 3 weeks! and christmas break's gonna be awesome!!!! i just can't wait to open my gifts!!!!!!!

oooh ! ihate literature now, because canadian literature is effin boring! they usually talk too much about immigration, first nations, and multiculturalism! not that i'ts a bad thing it's just too anthropologic!!!! it's annoying!!!! i hate studyign people and their reasons! i need fantasy or fiction!!!! i need a escape from reality! seriously! ooh...

what about the peresentation? i friggin have presentation on this article that talks about sex and online personals and dating... i can relate but this is not my cup of tea!  i hate speaking in front of people! and mind you it's an extemporaneous speaking activity.... and i just hate having to speak in front and share my ideas to class... it just makes me all red and stupid! i know i am stupid in english... so i just wanna have my presentation done!!!!

ooh and i'm swamped with lotsa readings and i feel too lazy to read em... and i have lotsa papers to write too... essay here essay there! i hate it!

okay imma go run for a bit!

xoxo

I don't have a job

I am lazy going out of my room

I read too much blogs

I am an online stalker (bad)

I am lazy to read my textbooks

I am lazy sketching (damn)

I still have to sew few pieces for myself, and i feel lazy to do it

I have to go to the library and get the book of patterns

I need to have friends

I am depressed and lonely

I need support

I need new clothes

I need money

I need everything that I don't have...

HIGH SCHOOL GAY LOVE.... BITCHES!!!!

When I was in high school, i never really thought of having a love affair of any sort with anyone. The idea just didn't seem fit to my personality. Of course, the idea crossed my mind hundreds of times, but that wasn't enough to convince myself to indulge in love. Maybe, I wasn't that kind who professes the interest in dating? Or maybe I was just trying too hard to restrain myself from experiencing heartache? Or maybe I didn't know what, where, how, or when, to fall in love?

Gay relationships in our school was like the an organized orgy. It's a secret but many knows. Playing the hide and seek thing. Sometimes somebody's nasty mouth couldn't resist the telling other people, it's normal. friggin bitches. some just do not know how to stfu! lmao... but that makes it more interesting right?

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So I am back in school. It's okay, not that I have a choice to not like it. I am trying my very best to focus my mind on my goals. It's been really hard coping up for the lost year that i didn't spend for school. No more time for regrets anymore. Sabi nga ng friend kong si Super P. positive lang wah na nega! So in lieu of our promise to positivity, I'm taking a psychotic pill to cure my incapabilities of gearing towards the positive....

I've been trying to read this weekend. Reading for school and reading for pleasure. It's such a weird thing going through all the same process again of reading about the proper way of writing and how to analyze texts and passages and essays. I never really liked it. Never. I'm taking this course in english where i think I'm not supposed to be in. Most of my classmates are born Canadians so I think I'm a little out of place. It's hard especially most of the texts are related to Canadiana, Canadian culture, both popular and old and classic.
I was reading the textbook earlier and I was so bored reading about thesis statements, the conclusions, the body of the essay and the likes. It's just that I know I am not good in writing. I once thought I was but I know I was just pretending trying to put myself in the pedestal so that people would think I'm good in everything. Tell me about biting more than I can chew, no biting more than i can actually take is more like it. It was sort of like a suicide deep inside. This is sort of lame but that's just the way it is. I pretended because I don't want people to think that I am dumb.

I'm trying to learn how to write again since my brain has rotten out of boredome from last year. I want to make sense now... urgh! i wish i could make sense! wah! it's so hard!

I still remember that record i bought as a kid. I was in grade four and she was big, ( READ )

Diving and swimming event is probably the most anticipated event of the olympics (We'll at least for me!) Not that I am always on the look out for those bulges noh! I watch women's diving and swimming events too. They too have two bulging things in front of them, don't they? It just so happens that they're not quite evident, tend to look more a bot like t-birds (Ihave nothing against t-birds, i actually think they're kind of unique).

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! PRESENTING THE HOTTEST GUY IN THE MEN'S DIVING EVENT!!! DAYUM HE'S HOT AND GORGEOUS... SO IDEAL... I WANT HIM IN MY BED. (urgh i hate my bed it's too small. duh!)


ALEXANDRE DESPATIE
omg this candian diver is like totally hot. plus the bulge... so big! hahaha! lol! so yeah he's from quebec and his name is pronounced alek-zan-der  de-pa-tee.  pardon the bragging... lol!

he's so hot!!! i want him!

HE'S SO HOT!!!

Si girl ang kauna-unahang winner ng beauty pageant na nagsuot ng women's tux!

Isn't she just the most glam of them all, even more fabulous than the recent winner?

Japanese rule! They're just really fashion forward!

I may not be able to write that well, but I am not stupid.

Not everyone's gifted with the talent to write.

Maybe that's the reason I sucked in the toefl writing section.

See... I can't even write a single complete paragraph! Bwahaha!

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I am currently studying for an exam tomorrow. It's an equivalency exam which measures  my  knowledge/intelligence compared to that of a Canadian high school graduate.

One must be filled with humility in order to survive in another country. Everything here needs to be equated to their perceived qualificaton. Almost everything needs an upgrade/refresher, as if you're the dumbest person walking the face of the earth (not really). Maybe it's just that they really prioritize the Canadian way of educating people. And to think the people who've studied here think it's easy. Huh. so yeah... I'm up for the challenge, may it be easy or.... urrrrhhh... not...

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I'm in the library studying science (in general). reminds me of my high school days and chemistry cramming's when i was still in UST.

With a Hollywood Dollars! Damn i just know that Yam Laranas would make a really great film.

The remake looks really really scary! 

The movie has already been featured in Cannes Film Festival and getting great reviews.

I wanna see.

The word MANYAKIS (short for Manyak sa Kiss) which is a Filipino slang for pervert was first heard on the 80s sitcom Chicks to Chicks.

Nelly Furtado's daughter Nevis is half Portuguese, a quarter Indian and a quarter Filipino.